I don't know why I feel compelled to send this out in to the ether - I think it's because I can't really talk to my family and friends anymore as I'm frightened I'm going to drive them away.
But I have been pretty anxious/depressed for a while, and I think my DP is at the end of his tether. I am too, so I don't blame him. But he likes to go out to party, and I am boring and don't really want to anymore. He's really really positive and upbeat all the time, and I just can't be. He's really happy in our new house and I'm not. He is happy go lucky and optimistic and I've lost all my joy and worry all the time. He loves going on holiday and I find them very scary and want to be in my comfort zone. We used to be very very in love, but then I've changed since our DS came along (and that's 2.5 years ago, so surely it should be all settled by now?!!)
He's said he doesn't like talking about my depression as it brings him down and he has to be cheerful for both of us. He says he has no doubt I'll get better, but I don't believe him as it's been going on for so long now. But I feel like it's all I can talk about at the moment, and I feel like I'm defined by my depression and I just don't know what to do.
It must be a nightmare for him, but the pressure is just too much. I want to run far far away.
Don't suppose there's anything anyone can say to help, and i don't think even writing this is helping, but I don't know what else to do...
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I think my relationship is collapsing
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ruby7 · 27/08/2007 09:38
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