Struggling

[123xo321]

My boyfriend has been depressed for a long time
He’s lost a lot but I’ve helped him through everything
We’re supposed to be getting married
However, last month I noticed he was messaging other girls and one message was “I’ll always have love for you”
And obviously I got angry about it but I’ve sort of forgiven him
However, recently he keeps saying he’s going to milk himself and if I tell his family or ring the police or do anything then his deaths on my hands. I feel so helpless :(
This has happened a few times now

[123xo321]

Kill himself *

[12345kbm]

Can you explain a little more about the circumstances under which he threatens to kill himself?

[123xo321]

He just says “this is it, I’m going to do it, I’m not telling you where you are and if you ask my family where I am then the death is on you. I won’t be alive in the morning”
Things like that

[12345kbm]

So, I mean the context. For example, does he start to threaten to kill himself when you say you want to leave the relationship or that he has to get a job or that he needs to get help...?

[123xo321]

When we argue, when I tell him the things I want to do and that we need to talk about situations because we’ve lost a house we bought because he walked out of a job without telling me, so we get into an arguement when I say we need to talk about our life and how we can sort it then he starts

[12345kbm]

He's manipulating you in order to get you to back down and do what he wants. It's very, very common with abusive men. He is using it to do whatever he wants in the relationship. For example, message other women, walk out of a job, discuss your future, stay out all night.

He sounds irresponsible, immature, manipulative and he's probably cheating. Are you sure you want to marry him?

[123xo321]

We’re living at my mums at the minute because we lost the house, and he’s living here rent free.
Once, a month or two ago, he told me he was at work and I came home for my lunch and he was sat there and said and I asked why wasn’t he at work? And he just kicked off “COs I was going to kill myself today!”
I feel bad COs he has nowhere else to go, he’s a dad too, to another woman’s child. If I end it he’ll end on the streets and its my fault

[123xo321]

He hasn’t came home tonight and he’s now turned off his phone and won’t reply to me when I keep asking if he’s coming home, I’ll even pick him up

[12345kbm]

What do you want to do?

[123xo321]

I want everything to go back to normal
When he worked 40 hours a week, where we had a house to live in, where we had a wedding planned
But he keeps just threatening to kill himself and blame me for it

[123xo321]

Ps. I also work full time so I’m not just wanting him to provide income

[12345kbm]

How would you feel if he was currently out with another woman?

[123xo321]

Id go crazy :(
Getting upset at the thought

[RaininSummer]

I am afraid that he sounds like a manipulative loser. Nothing is on you if he ends up homeless or even does kill himself {which he won't as this is just words to make you give up on discussing whatever is wrong). I think you need to warn him that if he doesn't work on the things you need as a couple such as get a job and keep a job, you want to split up and he needs to find a new home.

[12345kbm]

He's not paying rent.
He lost your house because he walked out of his job.
He's messaging other women. He's currently out, switched off his phone, you don't know where he is or when he's getting back (2+2)
When you try to discuss problems in the relationship he threatens to kill himself.

Do you really think that you should spend another five minutes with, never mind marry this man OP?

[Hanab]

Let him on his merry way ..
tell his family all his issues and let them deal with him ..

He is taking advantage of you and your mum..

Take care of YOU ..

[123xo321]

I wish I could show you the messages
I won’t be able to sleep tonight
He said he’s at w friends tonight but won’t tell me which friends incase I message them

[123xo321]

I feel embarrassed talking to my family about it
They know nothing

[Sunflowersok]

What are the reasons he claims he wants to kill himself?

You know this is emotional manipulation don’t you?

[12345kbm]

I know you're upset but this is no life and he has completely disengaged from the relationship.

Pack his stuff up and tell him to leave tomorrow. I'm sure he can stay with the woman he's with tonight, I wouldn't worry about him being homeless. He's walking all over you OP and you deserve far, far better than this.

He won't kill himself.

[CharlotteCollinsneeLucas]

If I end it he’ll end on the streets and its my fault

No, that would not be your fault. He is an adult and it's his responsibility to look after himself. If he's suicidal (which it doesn't sound like he is - manipulative is more like it!) and you end it, then his family will support him. He would not be your responsibility any more. You'd be free of all this.

I think it's a very good way forward. I think marrying this man would be an extremely bad move.

[123xo321]

I feel so useless and I’m sad all the time and I just don’t know what to do
My family and friends have no idea what’s going on because he’ll get angry at me telling them :( I said my dad and me will come and get him tonight and he kicked off “why you telling your family about what’s going on?”

[Savingforarainyday]

Crikey
Set him free

[CharlotteCollinsneeLucas]

Listen to your feelings. They're an indication of how bad this relationship is.

And think, if you leave him, you don't need to worry about his reaction when you tell people how bad it was!

[MarianaMoatedGrange]

He's crafty. He doesn't want his family, your family or his and your friends knowing what he's really like, so uses his suicide threats to control you and ensure you bear the burden yourself.

He's out with friends and you're on here worrying yourself sick. Is this really the life you want?