Bear with me because this is difficult to explain...
I’ve been with my DH for 12 years, married for 9, 2 young DCs. He’s a decent person, good job, loves his DCs, does lots around the house, etc. Our relationship has been rocky for the last couple of years, we are probably both to blame for not putting the effort it, not communicating well, etc.
The one thing that’s really bothering me at the moment is that I have been reading up about Emotional Abuse and sometimes I think he borders on it. I’ve spend the last few years thinking it’s something wrong with me but I actually feel like I have ‘woke up’ and the way he acts is actually very manipulative.
My question is are these things just the sign of a manipulator/control freak type or are they actually emotional abuse? I feel like there’s a very fine line between the two...
- Jumps straight on the defensive at any hint of an argument, looks to find some way to blame me/others.
- Twists everything around in arguments, for example the other day he overtook a car at a stupid moment and nearly trapped us between this car and a bridge at high speed (it was poor planning he’s not really an aggressive driver) the car pulled out into our lane right in front of us and I literally thought we were going to crash so I screamed (kids were in car so I panicked) - apparently he was fine and me screaming is what the problem was (even though that was after he tried to kill us....) - he eventually apologised as he saw how terrified I was but it was still an “ I’m sorry but”
- Can’t argue with him because he’s never wrong = circular arguments where I eventually give up!
- As above, never apologises or if eventually forced to it’s always an “I’m sorry but”, even to the kids. It’s like he thinks taking responsibility is weakness or something.
- when trying to prove a point he says “I’ve talked to other and EVERYONE thinks the same” when clearly he’s actually probably asked one other person.
- brings up things to make me feel bad if he’s losing an argument, for example we had a huge row about his family a couple of months ago and in the middle he decided to tell me I “needed to lose weight” (apparently just because he wants me to be healthy - I’m a size 12-14 and perfectly happy with my body) - completely irrelevant to the argument but he does subtle versions of this all the time.
- Walks off mumbling stuff when he’s cross, or mumbles stuff under his breath when he’s annoyed with me, even in front of kids.
- literally never listens to me the first time I say something, which means I repeat everything, even the mundane shit which drives me crazy!
- he’s like a dog with a bone about anything he wants to do, badgers me until I give in just to get him to stop going on.
- all this is worse if I’m ever ill/vulnerable, there is zero warmth from him.
- uses emotional blackmail about a seriously ill family member to make me feel bad about anything, even things seemingly unrelated.
- Zero sex - root of this is his PE problems he refuses to get help with or actually even acknowledge is a problem it’s my fault somehow - I’ve given up!
- picks on semantics during arguments and blows it out of proportion- eg “so that means you think I’m the shittest husband ever” etc
- talks to me through the kids - this is a weird one...I can’t quite describe it...a mundane version would be “mummy will take you to get dressed now” - no discussion with me I could be doing something...it weird.
- hates me to sit and relax, constantly has to come up with jobs for me.
- thinks he is Cinderella even though we do equal around the house - I should somehow be grateful he does it and my efforts count for nothing!
- if I call him out on anything I’m ‘nagging’ or ‘starting an argument’ - how can you communicate with that?
- denies he’s said or done something - sometimes straight after doing it but you can see he genuinely believes himself - it’s crazy making!!
- I feel like the worst version of myself when he is around...not sure that’s his responsibility but it’s how I feel most of the time...
Wow writing that down it sounds soooo bad!!
Is this just control freak/passive aggressive behaviour or borderline emotional abuse?
I’m not afraid of him, he doesn’t control what I do or ever stop me spending time with other people, I travel with work a lot he’s supportive of my career, family, etc. He doesn’t fall into an abuser box in any of those ways just the way he communicates is draining...
Any thoughts?