Break up support thread 2

[Jonsnowsghost]

Carrying on the supportive previous thread that ran out of space!
@herbsmokedchicken definitely that, although I wouldn't as I'm not a cheat....

[herbsmokedchicken]

Ahh I just made this thread as well! I’ll get mine deleted

[herbsmokedchicken]

It’s difficult eh you can’t just turn off your feelings altho they apparently can!

[feistymumma]

Marking my spot. Hello all.

[herbsmokedchicken]

Three weeks tomorrow since we last had a conversation. Over text. Four weeks Friday since I last saw him in person. Just hate it! He was my best friend and now I haven’t spoken to him in three weeks

[Mumcomehere]

Waving :)

Since I sent the email, I havent cried, I felt sad, but when I have had a few wobbles today, I have referred back to the email I sent, and it makes me feel a little better, I am hoping this is onwards and upwards for me now.

[herbsmokedchicken]

That’s good that you’ve felt better!

I’ve welled up a couple of times and a few tears quietly slid down my face when I was at work but no proper crying which makes the second day in a row! Progress indeed.

[AdviceforMeplease]

Uh am an idiot. Looked at ex’s friends insta story tonight and have seen they’ve gone out for the night. Feel so sick and upset and hurt. I’m broken here and he’s gone out.. please send hugs and strength. I’m starting to hate him now

[herbsmokedchicken]

So hard to resist tho when it’s so easy to see! Am def sending you hugs and strength!

Just cried but was only a little one and after midnight so still counting it as two days cry free.

[TinselAndKnickers]

I cried a bit this evening as I felt sick being so close to him so hard waiting to speak to him. I hope he reaches out on my birthday and it's all normal.

Can't believe we filled one thread already - what a bunch of saddos

[Mumcomehere]

Certainly did struggle to sleep, have just been on a stalking frenzy (but I'm not sure why), anyway he hasnt been active on any social media or WhatsApp for over 18 hours now.

Everytime I go onto WhatsApp, is that classed as a last seen, rarely last seems when you wrote and sent a message last?

[Mumcomehere]

or are last seen when you have written and posted a message

[MarianaMoatedGrange]

Hi Mum ' He may have turned his 'last seen' off.

[herbsmokedchicken]

Morning how are we all? I’m tired. Slept ok once I was asleep but took ages to get there. Can’t remember any dreams about A but did dream I was about to go on a date with a co-worker - would never go on a date with a co-worker but especially not one that I didn’t not fancy, was married, and lives in another county. Wondered if my brain picked him for that reason because he is “safe” as not a real prospect!

@TinselAndKnickers we are a bunch of saddos but I feel like some of us who have been here since the start are starting to become slightly more cheery saddos...

[herbsmokedchicken]

*did not fancy obvs

[AdviceforMeplease]

Last seen will be when they opened what’s app last. If last seen is still showing then he hasn’t switched it off but just hasn’t been on. Sad how I am excellent at stalking.

Just had so many dreams about him. Feel deep heavy ache in my chest. Just want to forget him. Dreamt I was pregnant and we got back together. Because he was out I was half expecting him to try and phone me but he hasn’t, he promised me he wouldn’t so I guess that’s good. That was his old trick when he had had a drink. So frightened he will go out and hook up with someone 😪 I have blocked his friend so I don’t see it and can’t really look for it then. Although it’s kind of Torture to know I could go on now and look and see some of what he was getting up to.

[AdviceforMeplease]

P.s good morning all and hope you’re all ok and not feeling as shitty as me! I also feel so fat from all the junk food and wine. Maybe I’ll go for a run today as booked the day off to wallow... ....haha 😂

[Jonsnowsghost]

I still cant believe I managed to miss him coming to my house yesterday 😅 I normally notice everything! Although I think I would have been worse off if I did see him. Just odd that he would come round and message me to tell me he did (when he knew I was in) and then reply to my messages!

[herbsmokedchicken]

Yeah I definitely think he was trying to avoid talking to you! For whatever reason.
Prob for the best you didn’t see him but I’d be annoyed too!

[Jonsnowsghost]

Avoid talking but still text me 😅 men are confusing! Yeah I'm definitely thinking it's for the best but I can't help being a bit frustrated! Although i did look a terrible yesterday so probably a good thing from that angle 😅

[herbsmokedchicken]

Yeah there’s that!

[herbsmokedchicken]

I used to have a boyfriend

UGH in many ways I am feeling a lot better but I’m still so sad underneath it all. He was so lovely and we were happy. Grrrr.

[singleedition]

Morning all! I’ve had a grand total of 1 hour sleep so I’m off to drink as much coffee as I possibly can then going back to my usual wallowing in self pity 😂

[TinselAndKnickers]

I sobbed for two hours last night! I'm really tempted to text. I'm not going to. but I really need to talk to him soon!! 13 days till my birthday so hopefully he texts then and we can have a nice conversation. It'll send me right back to stage one where I'm like a junkie, but I don't care if he doesn't, I'll have to block him on everything cos it's just too painful.

[Mumcomehere]

@AdviceforMeplease thank you for clarification of last seen.

Because I knew his schedule (other than when he was cheating) I do find myself clock watching thinking he will be doing this now, or at work or doing this that and the other, anyone else do that to?

[crazylady7]

@mumcomehere I do this. Doing it now actually.

I get so fustrated with myself, he cheated and lied to me yet i miss him so much and want him back? Its so annoying!! I have every reason to hate him yet i dont. I forgive people so easily, so now time has passed (and a way to cope) i have forgiven him (just not forgotten lol). As time goes on all you remember is the amazing good times you had, its hard to remember the bad. Which makes this worse, i wish i could just permanently hate him so i dont have to have the horrible feeling of missing him. Its even harder because he really wants me back, so its very difficult to keep away from him on my low days, but he is toxic so i must. I kinda wish hed move on and not want me to make it easier to resist him :(