This will be long...
My dd is 10. I split from her dad years ago, he was, and still is, an abusive animal. We went into a refuge and I managed to keep him away when we returned to the area where my family live. I had to get a non-molestation order and the court also granted a 'lives with' order too.
He moved back to the area and was abusive again, but just verbally not physically - this was after the non-molestation order had run out. I reported every incident and he was arrested and released four times, sometimes NFA and twice he was charged and fined.
The police officer who was supporting me encouraged me to tell them everything from when we were together and I ultimately disclosed everything including rape and sexual assault as well as some pretty horrendous violence. I gave a statement and was supported by rape crisis but I decided not to pursue charges for lots of reasons, the main one being that I just wanted to move in from it all really and I didn't have the mental strength to go to court etc.
The last time (I've since moved away from the area) I saw him in the street, he said that he knew I had made a rape complaint against him. At the time I was confused how he knew since as far as I was aware the police had never actually spoken to him but I just didn't think about it too much because it's too painful.
Fast forward to yesterday, my daughter was sad and said that she was concerned about her dad and just wanted to know if he was okay. She kind of understands that she can't have contact with him (not that he's ever tried anyway) so I thought I would message his sister, who doesn't live in the UK and just ask if she knew how he was as my dd wanted to know. Stupidly, I let myself get drawn into a bit of an argument with her and one of the things she said, as well as lots of other untrue stuff, was that she had a police officer friend who had told her all about my rape claims and she knew I didn't take it further. I also know that she does have a serving police officer friend who lived near me but I have never spoken to! Is this how my ex knows? I feel absolutely devastated, I haven't been able to eat or sleep and feel traumatised - is this a normal reaction? How did she know otherwise!? I bared my heart and soul to that officer and now it seems other people have read my statement and my reasons for not taking it further and gossiped about it. And now I feel vulnerable again when I was finally feeling like I had moved on.
Not sure what I'm asking for really, I'm feel like I've been punched in the stomach.
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triangletrifle · 23/07/2019 23:48
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