In a long term relationship. Dont live together, no children together and too old for any (I have adult DC still living at home though).
Sometimes things are great; we get on well, he makes me laugh. But others...I don't expect it to be sunshine and rainbows all the time but I'm not sure some aspects of this are what I want and if I'm prepared to put up with it ad infinitum.
We've been through a lot since we've been together, I've stuck with him through a long court case, and serious physical and mental health issues. I stayed because I wanted to BUT part of me thinks a lot of people wouldn't have and whilst I don't expect that should give me some kind of indefinite upper hand I do think he should bloody appreciate it. Because I have made sacrifices as a result and continue to do so.
I dont know where to start really...some of it is minor stuff like he's messy (he never wipes a surface in my kitchen; his flat is rarely tidy), he helps me cook but never does anything else. Like if I say I need to tackle the garden he says that jobs like gardening are not worth his time (he has a v well paid job earning £500 a day). Except I don't earn that much! That's his standard response to most things I mention doing or ask for help with. He will help with certain tasks like fitting a bulb to my car but I have to help him. He never does anything unless I'm helping him with it. Conversely I do loads for him...his laudry when he stays here, I tidy his place when I stay there and wash up, I've also helped him move twice and done all the packing, unpacking and cleaning.
At weekends I want to do house stuff, go for a run etc. He is often tired, has 2-3 hour naps during the day. He says this is because my bed is so uncomfortable he can't sleep in it. My mattress was new 4 years ago. I find it super comfortable so am reluctant to replace it. I feel like I want to be up doing stuff like exercise and housework and he wants to do days out (if I've planned them) or just watch tv.
I have worked hard in the last year on my appearance (want to enter middle age looking my best) and I look better than I have for nearly 20 years. I thought he'd be happy. And he is but I feel like he has to put me in my place. I made a comment to him a few weeks ago about an aspect of our sex life I didn't enjoy. We had some communication issues in the past and agreed since then that we should speak up...so I did. I knew what I said could be viewed as criticism but I felt I had to say it. I did, he said he was hurt. I explained not my intention, discussion moved on. Until today where he basically throws out a verbal hand grenade saying I hate having sex with him (I never said this) and how I'd not discussed it and how he's felt hurt, etc, and then when I say well why have you sat on this for weeks waiting for me to raise it? He says oh I obviously shouldn't have mentioned it and closes down any discussion. Which I find hugely irritating. When we went through a fallow period last year with sex he came out with how we should have a sexless relationship and when I said that wasnt what I wanted he said I obviously did because I hadn't made any effort with our sex life. I was so annoyed by that. Aside from being untrue it's the way he throws this shit into a discussion. Is this normal? My previous relationships have mostly been with men who would do anything for me, so I don't have much to compare this to.
There is good in our relationship but the amount of negativity I feel currently is concerning me. Equally I want to be realistic, I was single for 5 years before I met him and in that time despite actively dating didn't meet anyone suitable. I know of itself that's not a reason to stay together but I'm mindful that men I'm compatible with in any way are few and far between.
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Rginsert · 25/03/2019 01:44
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