Hi everyone. I'm a new mum to a 6 month old and I'll be honest I have been diagnosed with PND. I've had a lot of support from my husband and I'm just taking each day as it comes. I'm still EBF which I don't know if that has made me more depressed I'm not sure. Anyway I have my own little family now and I am so happy with my husband and my son. I have always been close to my own family too; my mum and my siblings. Since my baby has been born I go to my mums often to spend time with everyone however as he has gotten older and my depressions gotten worse I just don't feel like going over as often. I feel like being alone most of the time and I've never felt this way with regards to my mum. In the past I've alienated myself but this time it's different. I don't want to meet up with friends or go to baby groups as I tried doing this to see if it would help with my PND but it just made it worse. Listening to all the mums saying their baby sleep through the night, never cries etc it actually made me feel a lot worse so I stopped going to all the groups. I then avoided even seeing my own friends, especially those with a baby too again because it was frustrating when they'd tell me how easy their baby was etc. I know I should be happy for them but when your a new mum who's tired and feels incompetent it's actually soul crushing meeting up with ppl who tell you how easy their baby is. Anyway back to my family, I have now even stopped wanting to see them. I am riddled with guilt because they make such an effort with me and love my son so much!!
My husband isn't the biggest fan of my family which I have just accepted because I know they aren't easy to get along with so it works both ways. But I don't want to be leaving my own family behind, they've helped me a lot, my mum looked after me incredibly during my pregnancy and when I had just had baby she helped me so much and I know all she wants to do is help me and help me overcome my PND. I just want to ask if anyone feels this way? And how do you pluck up the courage to go out and spend time with your family?
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Izzy12345 · 06/01/2019 21:06
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