I've posted under many names over the last year , mainly because I was embarrassed that I didn't have the strength to leave and I didn't want my mn 'friends' to get fed up of me the way my real life friends have .
Long story short : I met a man who initially was everything I could have wished for , it didn't take long for the cracks to show but I thought I could change him if I was just a little better with him , if I didn't say too much , if I just agreed with him more .. you get the jist !
Anyway I gave up my house to live with him and his children ( he is a young widower) and for a million reasons all of which I knew and could see before I did that I am finally at breaking point .
Right now ,I am awaiting the call back from the letting agent on a property I've fallen in love with back In my hometown (miles always from him ) . I have already passed the credit check and secured a little loan off my big brother for the deposit , just the references to go now .
I know it will all kick off when I tell him I'm leaving and I know there will be a battle over me taking my things and I probs won't get out of there without some injury or all of my possessions but I'm so looking forward to just me and my dds being happy and safe in our little cottage .
I'm still playing the game at the minute , still sending the 'I love you 'texts and pottering around his house , sorting his kids , handing my money over ( money is a big problem of his , his is his but once that's gone he demands mine too,'family pot' but only when it suits him ) .
Ive got a van lined up and am covertly putting the word out for second hand furniture amongst my work friends ( I still work in my hometown and of course he hasn't wanted to bother with any of them despite numerous invites )
It will be a few days/week or so before I can attempt to get my things and go but it's happening , just hope all is good news with the letting agency
Wish me luck 
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beverleymaccalovesdave · 03/01/2019 13:43
Well done OP. Do take care - is there someone who can be with you when you tell him to minimise the likelihood of injury / loss of property etc? Sounds as if that would be a good idea.
Good luck and please keep us posted. 
@willow
I'm one step ahead already , that is exactly my plan for this weekend , my exH has cleared some space for my kids 'going to charity' things and has also kindly said if I sneak any precious things ( photos , paperwork etc) out before then he will store it for me until I get the keys .
I'm happy to walk away with nothing if he starts though and I can't tell you how empowered that makes me feel .
Sod it .. il buy new eventually 
@willowmelangell brilliant idea about boxing for "charity" an OP bloody well done for already having that idea
Sounds like your EXH is a good support too
Keep safe and massive well done to you
Well done and great prep! You have to play the long waiting game sometimes but it's well worth it as when you leave, it's done!
I did something similar when I left my abusive controlling bully of a exDH many years ago. I actually got a mortgage and confessed to the agent what I was planning. He actually said that many women do it like that! I wish you great happiness in your new home. 
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There is no possibility that I will be able to get out whilst he isn't there . He works In building attached to the house and is In and out all day .
He does pop out but it's usually when I'm at work and due to my commute now it wouldn't give enough time to get everything.
My plan is too just rock up one morning in the van and say I'm leaving .
He's is the kind of guy to either cry and beg for me not to leave , kick off massively or stand aside and let me get on with it . Depends who he is on the day .
Letting agent is still waiting for one more piece of info but says it's looking good at the minute
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