Feeling a bit lost....

[Handbag101]

Long story short my husband and I are going through a trial separation of six months. It was my choice. I was just feeling lost and not happy in the marriage anymore. He stayed in our home and I move out to rent for six months. Time is flying and we are already half way through. We see each other regularly and want to make things work.

However here is the really pathetic bit.... I was playing an online game and got chatting to a guy on there. Just friendly chit chat and passing the time of day. We ended up swapping numbers and just speaking on what's app. Like I say normal everyday rubbish. He seems a nice guy. However, he has hardly been texting me anymore and I am so sad. Its really got to me. He lives 6 hours away from me so no chance of seeing him. He was just so nice and now I miss the texts. Pathetic really as I'm 43. I guess I just miss having someone to speak to when I'm lonely.

I am desperate to make things work with my husband but I feel sad at the loss of the online texts. I sound so stupid. I know it's for the best that I cut contact with him anyway. He's just hard. Guess I'm just lonely in the evenings.

I hardly slept last night as I keep thinking about the online chap and how his texts are becoming less and less.

God I sound like a teenager! Any advice?

[Lozzerbmc]

I think you sound lonely and can understand that totally. I’m just wondering whether you definitely want to work it out with your husband? Wouldn’t you be missing him rather than a stranger?

[toffeeapple123]

It's not pathetic. You're only human. No longer living with your husband - of course there is a void which this gamer guy has been filling. Cut him out and focus on making things work with your husband. Just got to have strong willpower.

[Handbag101]

Lozzer - yes you are right. Why am I missing a complete stranger. Weird hey. I suppose it was because he was just nice. But like you say... a stranger. He actually text me yesterday but I didn't reply.

Toffeeapple - yes absolutely. Willpower is the way forward. I do want to make things work with my husband. In fact I am going round dor dinner later and husband is over the moon.

I suppose really it wasn't even the gamer guy I was attracted to, perhaps it was just the excitement of it all.

Thanks for listening. So stupid when you think about it......

[Lozzerbmc]

It really isnt stupid at all - you are just questioning your marriage and thats ok- if it works out with your DP your marriage will be stronger for it. Hope all goes well for you