Hi everyone,
I broke up with my partner of 8 months due to a lot of issues around his insecurities leading him to be quite emotionally controlling in the beginning of our relationship. A lot of that behaviour stopped but he then became critical of me and very 'needy' in the relationship. He blamed a lot on my ADHD but I failed to make the link - I was never angry at him, unfocussed on our relationship, or ignored him. He did have issues with my 'obsessions' on things when they could be interpreted as liking other people (e.g. interest in an 'attractive' musician). We would argue for hours on end and little things would be blown up out of proportion. I am a very sensitive person and don't take criticism well.
I am really struggling with the break up and I am regretting breaking up and not giving him a chance. I feel that I have given up many wonderful things and someone who could have been a great partner if we had worked out our issues.
Everyone said LTB and I thought it would make me feel relief, and I fully believe that most of the issues were down to his insecurities. He agreed, and said he would work hard to change and understand me as a person and how our personalities differ. I have gone NC as I can't bear to see him as it is too painful.
The thing is, there was evidence that he was working on things. He would bite his tongue and was trying to be accepting of my hobbies and friendships that he initially found difficult. He has agreed to get counselling and do a lot of self help to work on his issues. He took a lot of responsibility for the breakup and was sincerely sorry. But I still left, after getting advice that he should work on these things independently of me and I was better out of the relationship.
He hasn't done any typical EA behaviour since - hasn't contacted me, hasn't talked to any friends negatively about me, hasn't made me feel bad for my decision or begged me to come back.
Have I made a mistake here and not given someone a genuine chance to change and make the relationship work? I know MOST emotional abusers don't change and won't accept their faults. But I know that a small percentage of them do.
Should I give him another chance? I am dying with grief over our relationship. I feel so lonely and lost. We did everything together, we had amazing times, and I am so scared I've lost something that could have been great had I given it a chance. I'm nearly 33 and feel very alone.
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Feel like I've made a terrible mistake
falaff · 17/11/2018 09:44
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