I know it's going to be the right thing to do but wish it didn't hurt so much.
Been best friends for 10 years, done so much together, we were like siblings. Was always there for her but couple of things in the last two years have left me reassessing it and while I had eased off a bit as a result, when we have met up I found myself trying to make things like they were but knowing they just weren't and think I need to just bite the bullet and end it. Difficult, as we're in a very specific hobby and socialise a lot with a small group which I've also been easing away from and clearly that's going to go by the wayside too.
Last year my grandfather was taken into hospital and I went there with him and rang my best friend from there to let her know what was going on. This being one year after a horrendous four-week period where my beloved nan refused treatment, food and water and starved herself to death (my best friend only offered to come with me to the funeral after she'd heard about 5 other friends offering and she'd not been brilliant over the whole thing).
It became fairly clear soon on that he wouldn't be coming out as he was going downhill, albeit fairly cheerful and with it at the time. Saw best friend two days later, told her his heart was failing, had something else wrong with him, he was dying. I didn't hear from her until five days later when I got a text to say "see you when we get back, hope your grandad is feeling better x" She was going away for a week with two mutual friends. I was gobsmacked at those words when she knew he was dying.
Spent a lot of time at the hospital over the next week as he deteriorated. Best friend got back on the Saturday. Didn't expect to hear from her immediately but didn't hear from her on Sunday. Or Monday. Or Tuesday. I had a text from her on the Wednesday when she'd heard from someone else that grandad had died on Monday morning. And basically she kept total distance. I had to carry on with our mutual hobby the week after, which was difficult, so I did keep myself to myself but if someone came and spoke to me, I did speak back. She never came near.
A few weeks later I did talk to her about her not coming near me and she just said "I thought you wanted to be left alone, I got it wrong, sorry". Thing is, no one wants to be left alone. They may not want to speak, but they need to know you're there. And she did precisely the same when I had a serious health scare some years before.
I've tried to keep things going but I just can't get past that text and not getting in touch when she got back from holiday (the rest I can, for some reason). So I need to end the friendship. I would never ghost, I need to sit down and tell her, just not quite sure how to phrase it. Any suggestions?
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ShatnersWig · 25/06/2018 12:06
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