So im sleeping in the sofa again tonight. My choice as i do have a bed upstairs, the problem is that is where my husband sleeps.
We have been together nearly 20 yr, have 3 wonderful children and up until 5 years ago life was pretty good. Then my husband had an accident that has left him disabled. Things have been tough since then. I was pregnant when he had the accident and had to nurse him back to health, he lost his job the following year due to illness and a yr after that i became his full time carer.
At the time of his accident we thought time would heal him as that's what the drs said but 5yrs on, hes no better at walking un aided and in a worse state due to med side effects, depression etc.
My question is, am i being completely selfish wanting to seperate? Hes changed as a person, he never leaves the house, hes lost all motovation and drive and i dont feel he even tries anymore. Iv been left to raise the kids as a single parent while looking after him and the house and i just cant anymore. I feel resentful of all the thing's the kids and i miss out on. I feel like my life is slipping past me and with each day that passes i feel like im becoming a more horrible person because of it. I resent friends and family having the life i wish i had and cant see having if i stay with my husband.
We have been together since i was 17 and i dont know anything or anyone else. Life hadnt always been great but the few yrs before his accident things had turned a corner, we were financially secure, both doing well in our careers and were having regular dates and family trips, making plans for the future. Now there is none of that, i look after the house and kids and organise life round hospital apps, while he lays in bed or on the sofa, plays video games or watches movies. I know he is in pain and his life has been turned upside down, i know he would be devastated if i broke up with him and would struggle on his own. But should i give up my hopes, dreams and life to look after a man i love just because i said "i do"
Im so torn apart about what to do for the best for everyone and thats why i have stayed this long, but now its seriously effecting my health and im like a zombie because i cant sleep at night.
What can i do?
Sorry for the rambles im just so confused
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MindMess1 · 26/02/2018 00:39
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