Hope I can fill in this back story as Ive had a terrible day and my head is all over the place. I also want to keep it short as it could be a long one! i had a pretty rubbish childhood (I'm an only child) with an alcoholic father. Vicious arguments between my parents all my life, drink driving incidents, police called out to domestic incidents right before my GCSEs etc.
My dad's first suicide attempt was when I was 17, I got home from college and found him overdosed, called 999 etc and his stomach was pumped and he was sectioned. Very traumatic experience and no one ever asked if I was ok or talked anything through with me.
I should also mention at this point that my dad was plagued by chronic back pain which was made worse by operations that went wrong. An addiction to prescription painkillers began.
He eventually left our house and moved straight in with a lady, she was on a lot of medication but I was never given details and the relationship was fraught.
My dad made another suicide attempt when I was 24 and We had my newborn son. His relationship with the lady was deteriorating and he blamed it on her because she stopped taking meds etc, as I'm an only child I was answering calls all day and all night about his problems. I spoke to his sister who let slip that the lady was a paranoid schizophrenic who had killed her own baby. It turns out everybody knew but me and my husband, and we were the ones who were taking our baby son round there when she was refusing to take meds! To this day my dad still maintains that he was right not to tell us about her history as he didn't see any harm would come to anybody. I liked her very much but I don't think I'll ever forgive him for not telling me the whole story so that my husband and I could set our own boundaries.
Shortly after that bombshell he ended up slapping her a couple of times and her grown children got her away. He got into a dispute with her over her council flat and in the end she was driven out.
He was in a bad state health wise with extreme chronic pain and he had driven everyone else away. I have literally been the only person left, his siblings don't bother with him. There's just me and the next door neighbour.
Fast forward to now and he's practically housebound, can only walk with a frame and is in chronic pain with hardly any sleep. He ended up in hospital over Christmas and I've been on the end of a lot of shouting and abuse, trying to understand what he's going through the best I can. Texts at 4 am saying he's going to kill himself. I'm running round sorting appointments etc. I've been a good daughter.
A few days ago he was discharged and the hospital arranged carers. He refuses to give the carer the keysafe code or his mobile number, expecting me to act as a go between when I work full time. This morning he was angry because there was some sort of misunderstanding with the carer and he told me (as I was getting the kids ready for school) that he was going to kill himself. I ended up snapping and telling him please stop threatening that every time something goes wrong, as it was so traumatic as a 17 year old and he's sending me into a tailspin everytime he throws the threat out. We had a pretty heated argument.
He then sent me texts saying that the reason he attempted suicide is because my mum asked him if 'he would like to have sex with me' (when I was a kid). That's how it's worded. Not quite sure if he is saying that she suggested he do it, or accused him of wanting to do it. But in any case it drove him to not want to live anymore. Anyway, it's all been said in a big fanfare of 'now the truth is out'.
I have no recollection of anything untoward, my childhood was shit but there was no sexual abuse as far as I know. I get on pretty well with my mum. Immediately after he sent the text, he sent one to my husband saying he thinks I'm having a breakdown.
I don't want to see him anymore. But the guilt is creeping in as he has no one else but a neighbour. And I cannot begin to process what he is saying to me and what it all means. Do I ask my mum? Do I assume he is just trying to hurt me? Help!
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