I have suspected for a long time that my mum has mental health problems but I feel like I need to know what's wrong with her. She would say nothing is wrong and be extremely offended. Does ANY of this sound familiar to anyone?
Most of the time she is great - we get on well and are pretty close. We can talk on the phone for up to 2 hours at a time and she is very understanding and kind. She's pretty generous both to me and my kids and she spends a lot of time looking after my niece as my sister has a complicated situation and is extremely good to her - does a lot of school runs, does homework and has lots of sleepovers and all sorts. She is a good listener, helpful, a bit overbearing with advice but just a normal mum.
But - there's another side to her. From time to time she gets these incredibly low moods that seem to last for days or even a week or two. I can tell exactly what mood she's in from the second she answers the phone. She sends me messages saying awful things or tells me them in floods of tears if I'm unlucky enough to phone during this time. She'll take things I've told her in confidence and twist them and throw them in my face (even saying the opposite to something she's said before i.e. at the time she'll have said she sympathises and then when she throws it in my face she'll say totally the opposite). She says she wishes she was dead and that she's at breaking point and is incredibly overdramatic with her tone saying things like 'Why does nobody understand that I'm a human being?' or 'Everything about my life is terrible, I'm a failure in every respect and I wish I was dead'. When I was a child she used to get really really angry at times - nothing particularly violent bar the odd push/smack here and there that was more normal for my generation. She also often used to get upset with things to the point of sobbing in a scary way for a child. I've heard her be absolutely awful to my niece when in a temper (worst was when they were having a row about niece not wanting to get in the bath and I heard her growl 'Maybe I should just drown you in the bath, you little bitch' - to a 6 year old. I also once heard her tell niece she'd call the social worker to get her taken into care (a real possibility in the past and niece knows it). I confronted her and she denied that's what she'd said and then said it was said in anger so she couldn't remember, and I've told my sis and she is just useless due to her own personal issues). I've also heard her being endlessly patient with niece in similar circumstances and talk at length about niece's anxieties about getting taken into care and what she's doing to help stabilise things for her, so I don't get it.
Even when in her normal frame of mind, she gets very hung up on drama and always seems to be fighting with someone. It'll be the contractor who did her floor and is trying to rip her off or some woman on the school run who is 'always rude to her' or the teacher at school or something. She always has a fight on the go. She is comfortably off (owns own nice home outright, has a small personal income from an investment) but will often say that she thinks she is 'the unluckiest person in the world'. She has had bad luck in the past including multiple health problems. She is single since a divorce 20 years ago. Everything in the world seems to revolve around her. She talks about how her friend's son getting married is rubbish because now her friend will have a lovely happy family time and what does she have - nothing but misery. If I tell her some news I know she'll instantly be thinking about how it reflects on her or what it means in terms of her.
I'm sorry for the long post I just don't really know what's wrong with her (if anything?) after another evening where a casual text to her (same as the ones we've been swapping for days) suddenly got a really nasty, vitriolic response. I'm tired of feeling like I'm on eggshells, not knowing if she's fine or if shes feeling suicidal, or if she's happy and cracking on with things or hating her life and all around her. I've really distanced myself from her (geographically) and I know she feels sad and hopes one day I'll move back but I know that after seeing her with my niece at times I couldn't let her look after my kids and it would cause more upset.
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Moanaohnana · 13/12/2017 23:51
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