It's been a few years but I still carry guilt. I had a terrible upbringing. No role model. I had no identity (only realise that now) as I was alone from the age of 17 (emotionally unavailable, mum growing up and an abusive step dad).
When I met my dd's dad it was like I was being saved from a life of pain. Although, what I didn't realise is how much my past was going to effect my marriage. I suffered with depression as a teen and thought it had disappeared until I suffered pnd. It had a massive impact and I thought I was unworthy of love. I never looked after myself, isolated myself and had no confidence (emotional abuse continued from step dad). I was angry for feeling this way as I should be happy. I basically disliked myself so so much. I continued to feel like I had no identity (I only realise that now).
I ended my marriage. He moved on very quickly and started distancing himself over the years. He now only sees them 2 Sunday's a month. He doesn't take interest in anything they do socially or at school.
In that time I found me. I'm a completely different person. I could never be like my parents, my dd's come first.
Although we are all happy, me and my dd's. I feel deep regret. I took away their family. Their dad. I feel if I was the person I am today, I would not of ended my marriage.
Has anyone got any similar stories?
How do I live with the regret of taking that away?
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I left my husband in the midst of depression. I basically took away my dd's chances of having a dad.
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cupcakesmakeyouhappy · 29/11/2017 19:57
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