Apologies this might be long. For a few years now I don't think I've been in love with my husband.
He's more like my roommate. The thought of any physical contact makes me cringe. I don't want to kiss him or have sex with him. I don't find him attractive. He's always been on the heavy side but is getting bigger no matter what I do or say to try and help.
The problem is he loves me more than anything. He works hard. Is a great dad and does his fair share of the housework. It would kill him to know how I feel.
A few months back I posted on here about his behaviours towards sex. He wants it all the time. He constantly wants me to kiss him and he's had sex with me whilst I have been asleep. I forgave him and it hasn't happened since but I can't bring myself to be intimate with him since.
One of the conditions to me forgiving him was for him to stop the constant nagging and sulking when it comes to sex and he did for a few weeks but now he's back to it. Says I can't possibly love him and that I'm not a good wife because I don't want to sleep with him.
I know deep down I want to leave. But I just don't know how. I will lose my friends as they think he's amazing and will think I'm cruel. I have no family and I don't want to hurt my children.
Thanks to those that made it through this story. I just needed to let it out I think
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I don't love him
Cantbelievethis123 · 31/10/2017 14:34
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