I'm hoping some people here will have experience and advice about dealing with low self-esteem. I've struggled with it for whole adult life (probably longer) but still coming to grips with where it started and how to address. I don't feel like my parents were critical or neglectful, although becoming a mother 2 months ago has made me start to see my childhood as being more problematic that I previously thought.
The reason I am posting here is that it is having a really damaging impact on my ability to relate to my partner and has done in the nearly 10 years we've been together.
While it manifests in feelings you'd expect, like feeling unlovable and losing a strong sense of self, the main way I express these feelings is through anger, which is very destructive.
I sought help from NHS and got a course of 1-2-1 CBT but it didn't help. The exercises relied on finding evidence that my bad feelings about myself weren't true but it just didn't work for me, because I couldn't find any! It actually made things worse because I couldn't find plenty of evidence for being unlovable. I basically just did my CBT homework, tried to make it work and at the end of the course allowed the therapist to believe I felt better. This is all very typical of me, I am a high achiever in large part because I can anticipate and meet people's expectations in situations like this. I just shelved the idea of therapy at that point.
Has anyone had similar experiences and found help that isn't CBT? Now I have a child I want to protect her from this.
Or does anyone have experiences from the other side, people who have been in relationships with people with low self-esteem? Could relationship counseling help or do I need to focus on sorting myself out?
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AngryPuffin · 24/10/2017 07:48
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