Got together when I was 19. He was 27. Said I love you after about 2 weeks of being together. Moved in together after a month. Lavished me with compliments, wanted to spend every minute of the day together. Then I got pregnant very quickly, wasn't sure whether to go through with it but he started saying loads of weird stuff about people with near death experiences reported that they went to hell and were haunted by their aborted babies. (I went along with the pregnancy and she is 2 now and the best thing that ever happened to me.)
Bad trust issues. Checking my phone and whereabouts constantly. Accusing me of cheating nearly every single day of our relationship. Downloads spy apps etc. Doesn't like when I make an effort with my appearance or goes on nights out without him.
When we argue he smashes mirrors/doors and throws things. He shoves/grabs me. Pushes me out of bed onto the floor. Screams in my face. When I try to leave he takes away my car keys, bank card and phone so I am pretty much trapped. He has grabbed me by the throat a number of times and once repeatedly kicked me in the leg when I was sat on the floor in another room hiding from him.
He sometimes punches himself in the face and gives himself black eyes. He says it stops him from doing it to me but still scary nonetheless.
After these incidences he always cries and is apologetic. Tells me it is due to what I said/did. Says he never actually hits me and that I'm just as bad as him (but I don't even shout, I just walk away most of the time).
He is very demanding sexually and wants it up up to 3 times a day. If I refuse to he will sulk and withhold affection from me.
I want out because my life is miserable with him. He shouts at me like I'm a child and moans if I spend any of my own money. I'm not allowed out with my friends and he thinks I'm seeing men behind his back ... I don't want to live like this anymore and I don't want my child growing up around it either.. but for the life of me I do love him. I need to be strong and not go back once it's over. But i'm petrified of all the trouble that's going to come and if it will be worth it or not.
Anybody got any advice or personal experience please share I would much appreciate it x
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Can't live like this anymore
Muchappreciated · 22/10/2017 09:54
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