I will be 19 at the end of February. My parents are divorced, and have been separated for as long as I remember. My siblings and I live with my mum, but contact with my dad was arranged through a contact order as every Friday afternoon as well as every other Saturday.
From about the age of 15 or 16 I wasn't quite so keen to spend so much of my weekend with my dad, and often asked him to pick me up later or drop me off earlier on the Saturday so that I could do school work. I'm now nearly 19 and he still expects me to stick to the rigid timetable of "contact" that was arranged when I was about 5. I really resent the fact that he just expects me to be available and still refers to "short weekends" and "long weekends" despite the fact that the contact order ceased to have any authority from when I turned 16 (although he insists that it applies until my siblings and I each reach our 18th birthdays). I just want to have my own life and be able to choose to spend my weekends how I like, whether studying or being with friends or just sitting at home!
I don't feel able to talk to him about it as he was emotionally and physically abusive with my mum. I don't trust him not to react angrily and if I'm honest am a bit scared of him. I feel so trapped in this cycle of him arriving outside my house to pick me up and just expecting me to be ready and waiting to spend the entire weekend with him. He doesn't get hints; I have tried to broach the subject lightly through a text (a big step for me!) but he spoke to me in person and any arguments that I had or ability to tell him how I feel just evaporated out of my head. It is as if he is always right and I am always wrong. I can't take this for the rest of my life (as he will probably honestly expect me to do, as ridiculous as that sounds!) and I really don't know what to do. I feel so bitter towards him and I really don't want to feel like that, for my own sake.
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tomtheturkey · 08/10/2017 19:25
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