I'm in a really messed up situation and as the title says. I'm not strong enough to stay but I'm not strong enough to walk away. My mental health is suffering.
The situation is so messed up its untrue. I know deep down its not right for me.
At the beginning I was probably what you call love bombed and promised a whole lot of things. Everything seemed to be going well. I thought I'd met someone lovely.
Then the truth started unravelling. It turned out he had an ex wife and three kids. The kids live with him. I thought okay I can cope with that. They also have a live in nanny.
Then all of a sudden he was unable to come visit me, I started doing all the travelling and visiting. If I didn't visit for a number of days I was the bad one.
Apparently his ex wife doesnt see the kids alot.. but he mentions she stays over when she does. They share the same bed when she does. Apparently she goes round just to eat food and sleep in his bed and doesnt see the kids.
Everything just seems to be a lie and messed up.
For example tonight the ex is going round to babysit so he can go on a night out with the nanny. He always has money to do that but last few times we've been out I've paid (he only recently got a new job and has been out of work for 6 weeks).
None of his family know about me. Its like I'm a secret.
The beauty is I'm off out tonight to a big black tie work event. At the moment I don't even want to go.
Its just insane how at the beginning he used to be so keen and message me all the time and want to meet up. Yet as time has gone on its got less and less and today he hasn't even text me since early on this morning yet hes been online on whatsapp.
Deep down I know I'm wasting my time but I somehow need to make sense of this situation. How does this all happen?
I sway between knowing the truth deep down but not being strong enough to call it off.
I'm so fed up.
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I'm not strong enough to stay, but not strong enough to walk away.
Strugglinglately · 06/10/2017 14:16
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