Long story short my partner is emotionally abusive. After a discussion on Wednesday I realised that for the sake of my health and sanity I have to leave.
We have just moved into a house that he bought - he now tells me the reason he didn't want me to share the purchase was so that he had control and could 'kick me out' whenever he wanted. At the time he told me it was because he thought I should keep my capital so that I would be financially independent of him, but it was our home and I shouldn't worry. I spent a lot of money on furniture, decor, moving expenses because all of his capital was purchasing the house.
I have recently been made redundant so I am without any income. I have some capital from my divorce and my redundancy but it is nowhere enough to buy anywhere. As well as being jobless I have serious, long term health problems which make it difficult to work or even to get a job. I am in my mid 50s too which makes it even harder.
So I am jobless, homeless and facing heart surgery in the next couple of months. I have posted elsewhere about the horrendous last four years I have had.
On top of all of this I have to leave my lovely cat behind as you can't take pets into a rental - which is all I can afford.
I spent two days in bed crying. I keep having anxiety attacks and breaking down in tears. I am exhausted. I am suicidal.
There is no point in seeing a Dr or seeking help because the problems are practical not emotional. If I tell them how I really feel they will hospitalise me which will do more harm than good.
Please someone tell me how to get through this and that it will get better.
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Leaving my partner: anxious, frightened, can't stop crying
Iris65 · 06/10/2017 13:56
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