The ex has taken our 3 children to Spain for a holiday. First time abroad with all 3. We decided that I would call/text each day to make sure he was ok and the kids were alright. I ve spoken to the kids about water safety, stranger danger, they have id bracelets on with his and my numbers on, taught how to make an emergency call (yep I basically sucked all the fun right out of going!!). This is partly to do with me not trusting anyone else to look after them as well as me, partly because up until the past couple of years he was a fair weather parent and a lot to do with me having attachment anxiety disorder. So....they left on Tuesday. Called on arrival. Called each day. He sent photos. Then he called on Friday evening after borrowing a strangers phone as his had broken! I have panicked all weekend and struggled to manage my fears. He just called using another strangers phone to which I m relieved to hear the kids are fine but surprised he has nt gone off to buy a cheap phone to keep in contact!! I told him he must go and get one or at least a phone card to use a call box! He seemed surprised to hear that these were options (?) and said he would go into Fuengirola, nearest big place to find a phone shop tomorrow. Now after this very short call you would think I would ve calmed down. For a few minutes I did. The panic calmed down and I just felt miserable. But then I started panicking that he might leave them with this stranger(the one who let him use his phone) whilst he goes into town to get the phone and they all get killed by him or he takes so the kids with him and the youngest one gets lost in the crowds/snatched/killed. O h my god why am I doing this?? They re not back in the UK for another week. I think I might die of a heart attack by then. Does anyone else feel like this? I thought I might enjoy some child free time but I m exhausted, crying on and off and barely sleeping. I m convinced they re going to die...
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I m catastrophising ,right? Please help me get a grip!
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Lulioli · 23/07/2017 17:47
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