Not sure what or why I'm posting I just have no one in real life I feel like I can talk too.
DH died nearly a month ago he had cancer we only found out 5 months before he died that he had it. I was pregnant at the time and it all happened so fast
He was the best parent in the world so much better than me and we are all lost without him.
The oldest DCs are so upset all the time DD1 doesn't like being around us anymore and the younger ones ask for him and they just don't understand he isn't coming back no matter how many times I explain it.
Today just seems like it would never end. The baby wouldn't stop crying and I just couldn't deal with him anymore so I left him in a room to cry alone and then I felt so guilty about it I cried too.
Which made me late getting the DCs from school/ nursery so they were upset.
Then just before bedtime DD2 got upset because I wasn't as good at hugging as DH. She said that she wished I would go to heaven and she could have DH back. DD1 then chimed in saying she wishes I had died as well in fact she would be happy if I went to heaven to and she could do what she liked. DD2 then got upset because she didn't really want me to die she just wants her daddy back.
It then took over an hour to get them go to bed.
I don't know what to do for them any more they just want their dad and I can't bring him back. I wish I had died instead of him I just miss him so much.
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I can't cope with the DCs as DH passed away
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rubbishmumof5 · 20/07/2017 22:10
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