A bit of background ,
I met my wife when she was 19 and I was 21, 20 years ago. It was one of those encounters that we both just knew we would be together.
We where together for 7 years before getting married and in total we've been together for 20 years, have 4 kids (18,12,9 and 6)
We have a house together, our first house purchased just 3 1/2 years ago.
Up until August last year I always thought we were really good, really happy, not a sign of anything being as it shouldn't be.
When out the blue she tells me "she's done" she doesn't love me like she feels she should anymore.
I was in shock obviously, nothing to point the finger at, nothing had happened and up to that moment we were a forever couple.
Spent all of last September organising a place for her and the 3 youngest to live and come e day she gets her flat reality hits, she panics I think, tells me she's sorry, she's always loved me and couldn't be without me and decides she wants to stay and give it a go.
Everything was fine up to xmas, we where getting on really well like nothing had happened at previously. Up until March this year she was still texting me saying she loves me, that we would be fine and she's glad she married me etc..
Around comes April 1st, our 20th anniversary of meeting and it was like someone has flicked a switch.
She gets cold and distant, doesn't want any physical contact and after pleading to her to tell me what's wrong, she tells me again that she's not sure what she wants again.
Spent the next 6 or 7 weeks like that, wondering if I'm gonna come home and she's gonna tell me again that she wants to leave, when finally she says the one thing I was hoping she wouldn't, she doesn't love me anymore and wants to leave 😢
I don't know what to do, I'm totally lost. I know it's out of my hands but I'm really really struggling to imagine life without her without having my kids at home as a family we've had for all this time.
I can't figure out why she was putting all those positive signal and texts and talks over to me for the 6 or 7 months previous if this is were we are now.
She's has now seen a solicitor and has started to petition for divorce, she doesn't want to live in the house but wants to move out with all the kids bar the eldest.
She only works part time, 16 hours a week so she's trying to figure out the best way of dealing with the equity in the house and how it might affect her benefits. We haven't got much equity as we jointly remortgaged last year to clear some debt and get new things for the house to help with a fresh start so there's on about £68k equity in it now, before anything is paid off.
Tbh, I'm not fussed about anything atm. The house, my job me.
The emotions of knowing I've lost her are just all consuming.
How do you cope after being with someone that long, not knowing anything else and realising its gone.
We were always so happy ..😥😢
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apostle51 · 14/06/2017 10:06
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