My menopause began 3 years ago and it feels like as the hormones disappeared, I became a different person. I used to feel so much joy in the smallest of things - flowers, sunshine, the thought of holidays, fresh coffee, a new book to read. I wasn't a completely 'up' person, I have suffered depression at times, and my life hasn't been marvellous, but I was able to enjoy myself to the max when well. Now its like I have lost my mojo and everything is a bit shit. I was thinking on the way to work today what would cheer me up, and I can't even think of anything. A year ago I had cancer, and though I trounced it, I feel like what was the point of surviving when we're all going to die anyway. Which makes me feel guilty when I was so lucky.
Sorry to be such a whinger!
I can't be arsed to do anything I used to like, my friends invite me out and I go, but though I act cheerful, I'm really just dying to go home and get back into bed.
My life feels a waste, though my kids are great, my job is worthwhile, it all seems a bit pointless really.
I am on medication for anxiety and I've done counselling, which makes me cringe to hear the sound of my whinging voice going on and on, when so much horrid shit goes on in the world. Mindfulness and living in the moment makes me tired, because every moment is followed by another moment in which I feel nothing but disassociation with everything I used to enjoy.
Sorry.
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mumoseven · 12/06/2017 19:58
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