Have been seeing my soon to be ex boyfriend for 5 months. We'd been friends and colleagues for 3 years before so it's moved fairly quickly. We've been exclusive officially for about 3 months but in reality since we started dating. This was something he pushed for, not me. He stays at mine 3 times a week and I've already met his family (again at his insistence). I had been single prior to him since ExDP left 5 years ago. I've been on the odd date but never wanted to take it further as I couldn't face going through getting heartbroken again and building myself back up. He knew all this and spent a lot of time reassuring me at the beginning that this was worth it, he was different yada yada yada. And for the most part it has been amazing.
There has been one issue since day 1: his 'ex'. They broke up only a month before we got together. They were together 3 years and engaged although they didn't live together and only saw each other once a week (he is younger than me, almost mid twenties, she is early twenties and both still lived at home. I am 27). She cheated on him and he decided that they'd grown apart so split up with her. She didn't take this well at all. He maintains she knows we've been seeing each other (I'm no longer convinced this is true) and yet she shows up at his house unannounced, has been getting him to help her with her photography projects for uni because she doesn't feel 'safe' on her own (despite having tonnes of friends she could have asked instead), she made him the other name on her discount card at her new job, texts him constantly and says inappropriate things like "I can't wait until you realise us breaking up was a mistake. By the time we're 30 we'll be married with 2 kids and a pug"
He's always maintained that they went through a lot together so he wanted to find a way for them to be friends but he's been firm in reminding her that they won't be getting back together. I've said it's his business who he's friends with but I do think she crosses a line and it does annoy me.
Recently I've begun to get suspicious that everything isn't quite as he said. Things like him tilting his phone away from me and being on it a lot, blowing hot and cold, insisting he had to be home at certain times so he could do 'housework' (he doesn't drive so he was relying on me for lifts). Also, despite being very active on social media and having lots of things up there about him and his ex, he has always been against pictures of us being on there. I also started to think that no woman would show the lack of dignity his ex was according to his version of events.
Tonight he 'had' to be home around 8 to 'do bits at home' - nothing specific but was very very adamant he had to be home then. After dropping him off, my friend called me as I was turning the corner so I pulled over and took the call as she's had a lot going on recently. We were chatting for about half an hour when guess who drives past me? The ex.
Before anyone says it might be innocent and she might just be 'showing up' like she has before - we have two rules
- complete honesty - this specifically involves him telling me when he sees her (this was his idea to make me more comfortable with how she was acting. It's been a couple of hours and he hasn't messaged me to let me know she's turned up)
- no cheating
He's meant to be coming over tomorrow. Ive messaged him and said I need some space to think so I don't think tomorrow is a good idea. I haven't mentioned the ex or said why. But I don't know where to go from here! I'm absolutely furious for a number of reasons:
- I've let him be around DS who has grown attached to him. I normally have a rule of a minimum of 6 months dating before anyone meets him (so he is the first person I've introduced) but this was a bit more complex as there's a group of us who halve always regularly done child friendly things outside of work so DS already knew him and got on with him. It would have been weird for him to stop seeing him because we were dating.
- As mentioned, we work together. I feel like a complete mug and now I have to put my big girl pants on when I go back to work on Wednesday and pretend it doesn't phase me and keep it professional because we work together (and I know, this is why people say you shouldn't date people you work with).
- we've been good friends for years!! I find this so disrespectful! I can't believe he's so ready to throw away a friendship over this! I had multiple conversations with him about a month in when I became aware of the ex being how she was saying if he regretted it and wanted to try again with her I'd understand and just to let me know. I even said I'd back off for a bit because I thought it was too soon. He was adamant he wanted to be with me and wasn't happy with the idea of us cooling things off and convinced me he was 1 million per cent sure.
I just don't understand why he was so insistent on introducing me to his family and telling all our friends and why he's so into discussing our future and all his plans if he's been carrying on with his ex. Who does that?
But anyway, rant aside, I wanted advice. I don't know whether to have it out with him and risk being made to look like the jealous girlfriend or just say "thanks for a lovely few months but I don't see this going any further". I feel like option 2 means I get to keep my dignity but I'll have to front it out at work and carry on being friendly with him because I won't have given him any reason for why I shouldn't be!
Sorry this is so long.