Hi all,
just wanted to vent something and see if anyone else has ever experienced this? I have been with my boyfriend for 2 years, we have our ups and downs like any couple ... but in general it is a good relationship.
One thing that I have learnt about myself in it though is that I do feel insecure quite often.. which, I think is a shame. I feel like sometimes I am not smart, or interesting enough for him, even though I know I am smart and interesting deep down... I don't just feel like that with him unfortunately. but he brings it out of me the most as this is my most close relationship.
Recently we spent 8 days apart due to other commitments and met up for a date night, last night. I guess I expected it to be lovely and exciting but the vibe was just not quite right. At times it felt pretty awkward and like we had nothing to say to each other, and I felt that the atmosphere of the evening was not relaxed - my boyfriend rushed us a little through dinner and I felt that it was because he was bored, and it put me on edge a little. We just weren't engaging and I felt awkward.
I did feel like I wasn't interesting or smart enough for him ... or he was not having a fun time with me. To be honest I feel like we both felt awkward and I just dont know why it happened. I don't like it, its a big deal to me even though I am sure it wouldn't be to most people.
I guess I just felt uninteresting and stupid and then didn't have anything else to say to him after that. and he didn't seem to have much to say to me either which only reaffirmed my worries. I am just wondering - after 2 years or so with someone, and then a good week apart doing separate things, what does one do when they end up feeling like that?
thank you!
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Felt awkward on date with long term boyfriend!?
Mashy86 · 25/05/2017 10:44
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