NC for this. Have been wanting to post for weeks but didn't have the courage.
Met DH 25 years ago, both had DC from previous relationships. I was never married, split up due to EA. He was divorced because of infidelity on both sides.
We married after 10 years together and both worked hard to make a nice life for all of us. Dh's job takes him away overseas quite a lot.
Three years after marrying DH suggested a baby. I really wasn't keen, other children were late teens and it seemed like a step back.
I also wasn't keen on going part-time with work because of loss of independence.
Anyway the following year we had a DC. It was wonderful. I was older so more confident and more patient. So we tried for another the following year.
When I was three months' pregnant the second time my DH had a landmark birthday. I was arranging a party for him so when he left his computer logged in I went on his email to find details of work colleagues etc so I could invite them.
I guess you know where I'm going.
Found some emails from a younger girl he worked with when he was overseas. To a country that at one time he was visiting for 3-4 days twice a month over a period of several years.
I rang him at work and ranted down the phone and he came straight home.
His first action was to delete all the emails from her! I now know that I made a mistake not reading those emails any further.
He also had her name stored under initials in his phone with messages along the lines of "I'm in town, fancy a pint?"
We rowed for a few days and he insisted that although they were suggestive nothing happened blah blah blah. The usual script.
We then went through the charade of a birthday party where he proudly announced that I was pregnant even though we hadn't spoken in weeks. I really I wanted to scream out loud and tell everyone what he'd done.
Eventually after a few months of agonising he apologised for 'upsetting me'. Crucially He stopped going to that country - he sent one of his colleagues instead. And that was that, life carried on as before.
Anyone who knows me would be absolutely shocked that he would do it and also shocked that I had let him get away with it. That's not my style at all as usually I don't put up with crap from anyone.
I have never told anyone. I felt that if I did then that would be beginning of the end. Nor did I want people to think badly of him.
Now he has another big birthday looming and it has brought it all back to me.
I have never felt suspicious about him or checked up on him either before or since but it is eating me up now.
I fear that if I had read those emails back then we would no longer be married - and yet we're happy now.
I got up the other night and tried to google how to retrieve deleted messages and tried to do it on his machine but it wouldn't go far back enough.
But I feel I need to have this out with him once and for all. I know he'll be shocked if I mention it. I guess he thinks he got away with it.
In my heart of hearts I know he had a full blown affair with her. What do I do with that? I don't want to split up so not sure what can be achieved now.
What would you do?
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He cheated 10 years ago
Itsuglyhead · 15/05/2017 13:26
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