Hi all,
I don't no why I am writing this as I know what I need to do. I think I just need to get it out.
Before I start, so as not to drip feed, I should say I have BPD. Part of this means I experience intense mood swings from incredibly low, to manic. When I am manic I become very silly and childish. I am on medication to manage this and it helps but I still sometimes suffer manic episodes.
Last night whilst me and my husband were lieing in bed I was being quite manic. For some reason I thought it was funny to make up silly pet names for my husband. These weren't offensive names just things like "my little alligator". At the time I found this hilarious and despite my husband asking me several times to stop I continued making up names and laughing.
My husband became increasingly annoyed with me and after about 10 minutes lept on top of me and held me down by the neck saying "you need to stop". I panicked and bought my knees up, kicking him in the groin which made him get off me. He then lay down and went to sleep.
This morning I have bruising on my shoulders and neck. Neither of us have mentioned it.
I am in shock. I know I was being silly but he has never reacted in an aggressive or violent manner before.
I know I need to leave. This can't happen again. But where do I go?!?! What do I say to people?!?! And what about the kids. I don't no how I will cope with them and my mental health.
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