Hi
I'm separated and recently started what turned out to be a toxic relationship with someone a lot younger than me.
He couldn't cope with the fact I am still married and I respected that. Except it was one of those situations where he would say we couldn't see each other, I'd accept that and then he'd contact me again. We'd make arrangements to meet up and then he'd cancel last minute.
Somehow I didn't have the courage to end it once and for all at the time. - Possibly because the sex we had was phenomenal - best I've had in decades and this was mutual.
Last weekend a couple of things happened - he told me he was thinking of another woman as he masturbated and my friend saw him out with another girl.
I was angry, jealous and drunk so stupidly sent him viscious messages telling him not to contact me again and saying the one thing you never, ever say to a man which is not true.
He phoned me early the next day and called me all manner of names under the sun and told me to F off.
I have apologised profusely because I was so hurtful. I feel horrendous. I can't apologise anymore. I don't even know if he has read my message or just deleted them straight away.
I know I did wrong and was incredibly childish. Is my guilt misplaced? I just have an urge to try to make it/him feel better.
The relationship had to end and could never go anywhere but I didn't need to kill it quite so dramatically.
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Bestthingscomeinsmallpackages · 01/04/2017 10:27
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