I'm so fed up of my dad. I am generally a happy person but he just brings me down constantly. He's the most arrogant self absorbed person I have ever met.
For some background, he physically abused my mum for years. They split when I was 7 (20 years ago).
He got into a new relationship and physically abused her too. I phoned the police one night at 13 as I heard him battering her and was terrified. Had to go to court and stopped seeing him for about a year. In that time I got letters begging for forgiveness and threats that I would ultimately be the one losing out as my sisters would get all the stuff from him and I'd lose out.
He has a terrible temper and used to scream at me until I wet myself. Myself and sisters were terrified of him. There's still a really tense atmosphere around him.
Anyway I started seeing him again after the letters and sure enough he did improve but there was still a tense atmosphere. He now has a new wife who he verbally abuses but for some reason (money?) she's happy.
Now I have two children and he's keen to be a part of their life. He picks my daughter up from school and she went to his house but I was told by my sister who was also in the house that all my dad done was shout at my daughter for various things like not sitting properly whilst eating dinner, not sitting still whilst watching tv, not being able to read his homework reading book etc.
Tonight I was over and we were talking about how my kids look like their father (my OH) and his sister who are both overweight and the conversation went like so...
Him "there's no way to say this without sounding unkind but I'm really nervous they (my kids) end up really fat. I mean look at My daughter and her appetite I don't want her to grow up to be a big fat woman. "
All I manage to say is no I don't think so.
Then he says "how much does OH sister eat? Is it a lot or just the wrong kinds of things?"
I just say I'm not sure.
But it's so hurtful and we are not close that it would ever feel ok to say this to me.
I feel maybe I'm over reacting as I don't like him as a person and the things he done in my childhood but I don't know. I don't want to tell OH as I don't want to hurt him.
I honestly just feel pure hate towards him and I don't want him to be part of my kids life. He's so negative and he used to make comments about my weight growing up and it made me feel really insecure. He's very very vain.
For background, my dad eats very unhealthily but has an active job so is a healthy weight. I'm a healthy weight and so are my kids. My daughter will eat anything and snacks on fruit. She is often hungry but will have fruit.
Not sure what I want from this but I just feel so hurt by his comments but feel like I can't do anything. He's constantly phoning me and I ignore him half the time but then he just turns up on my door.
There's countless other times he's made me feel awful. When my daughter was born he made comments about her looks and how he hoped they changed when she grew up.
I hate feeling this hatred towards him but just having to put up with it. I have sat him down about 5 years ago and told him exactly how I felt. How he makes me uncomfortable etc and he was hurt but nothing changed and it's as though it was just never spoken about again.
Are the comments tonight hurtful or do you think I'm so hurt due to the accumulation of things he's done and said in the past?
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I think I hate him
Pwc12 · 31/03/2017 20:54
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