I have had a feeling for over a year that I don’t love my DH the way I should. Married 6yrs, together 10. Two kids. He’s difficult to live with, I actually like it when he goes out (rare) as I get peace & quiet. I don’t enjoy passion with him either, I actually find myself recoiling and could easily go without for the foreseeable. I tried to tell him my feelings last year. This actually made it worse, he’s watching my every move to see if there’s a 3rd party but also declaring his undying love for me all the time – but also gets huffy and childish also if he feels he’s not getting the same in return.
We had a chat last night and he says he loves me as much as ever – he admits he’s difficult to live with but is working on it . I still love him but don’t think I’m in love with him. What a cliché. I don’t know if I can get it back, we’ve both done and said some shi**y things over the years. He’s offered to leave and find a room to rent.
I feel like denying all my feelings just to keep the status quo - scared of hurting him so much, and upsetting the kids. On the other hand i just don't want to see myself in 20 years living with the same bad tempered moody person.
I don’t know how to get to the bottom of what I actually want. The thought of him leaving the family home to go rent a room makes me so sad – it would be all my fault and the kids would be upset. I used to think if we could fast forward and have a decent parenting relationship but separated then I’d be happy as larry – but I just don’t know…
Any help or words of wisdom appreciated… Feeling terribly upset today. Know he is too.
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MumsBiscuits · 31/03/2017 13:59
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