Have NC.
I have a male friend I met at work 5 years ago, although we no longer work together.
The friendship soon strayed over the line and we became emotionally close. I was / am in an unhappy marriage, with control issues but for various reasons am still in that relationship.
He was also in a relationship. I know what we did was wrong but I got carried away and felt ‘loved’. He said he loved me too. We never DTD though, only emotional closeness, kissing etc.
Unfortunately his other half found out and the relationship ended abruptly. My other half never found out and life returned to normal, albeit I felt bereft emotionally for a while.
I moved myself to another area of the company and no longer saw this person at work. We no longer communicated and I tried to forget about him.
About 2 years after all this happened – I.e. about 3 years ago, we met each other by chance and, because of the nature of his work, he was able to ensure that I had to talk to him (sorry if this sounds cryptic / vague but I can’t go into detail as it would be too identifying.
We then started texting again / chatting again and it appeared ’a spark’ was still there.
However, he was / is much more distant, there’s no talk of ‘love’ etc. We are just like friends.
He wanted to meet up and we kissed. He says he finds me attractive and wants to be friends and he enjoys kissing me.
I find this bizarre and have told him I think it’s best just to be friends.
But because I am so weak, and also because I get very little affection at home :( - I always end up caving in and kissing him.
I know it's wrong, I know he is using me, I know he clearly doesn’t love me, but I can't help myself.
We talk from time to time and it really hurts when he mentions his partner (who clearly doesn’t know that we are in touch again…) I am puzzled why he is like this – does he not kiss his partner? I have tried asking him but get very woolly answers.
I know the sensible thing to do would be to cut off all contact… but… I would miss him. I need to be stronger in ensuring our friendship stays inside appropriate boundaries I know.
I would really welcome some help, advice and perspectives. Please don’t be too brutal though, I'm sorry for what I did - i'm lonely and just need support to do the right thing. :(
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This weird ‘friendship' is causing me so much heartache
MuckedUpAgain · 30/03/2017 17:12
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