I've name changed for this post.
Me and my partner are at rock bottom. He has depression and anxiety and I've always struggled to deal with it, I know that that makes me selfish but when he pulls away from me it makes me feel so lonely and not enough, no matter how much I tell myself that isn't the case it makes no difference.
When I feel like that I get so angry I try to push him away to test him, he can't deal with it and gets so angry back at me, I don't like it but it's the only time I know he cares so i probably cause it on purpose.
Last night I put our 6 month old to bed, tried to hug him and he pulled away to sit alone and watch the TV. I went to bed upset, he came to bed at 2 and woke me. I was still upset and we argued. I don't know why but I didn't want to sleep on it. He did and so he went to sleep.
When my 6 month old woke up at 6.30 something happened inside me and I just couldn't do it, I left her door open so he will hear her, grabbed my keys (still in pjs) and left. I'm sat in my car half a mile from home and have no idea what to do.
This is a pointless post, I'm just vocalising.
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Relationship at rock bottom
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Justamummy1 · 12/03/2017 07:24
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