Hi. I'll try to be a quick as possible as I don't want people getting bored, I would really like some advice!
I had a physically and emotionally abusive childhood but have very few memories as I have blocked most of it out. I've always felt there may have been some sexual abuse, I have been aware of sex by myself (iykwim) from the age of about 8 and although I enjoy sex there's also a part of me that finds it dirty. I suffer from depression/anxiety due to my childhood but have learned to live with it so currently not on Meds. I have seen counsellors, who have picked up on sex issues and asked if more happened but due to my lack of memories it hasn't really helped.
Over the last year or so I've started having dreams that feel familiar and one in particular is recurring. They are more like nightmares and I wake up terrified. I had another one last night and I'm wondering if they are memories coming to the surface. Last night's dream was a lot more obvious and actually points to something in RL that has a physical effect on me.
I've started writing them down and there is definitely a recurring theme, so I'm wondering if anyone else has had this and knows of how I can try and bring these memories out - if they are actually memories?
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MiddleClassPerm · 05/03/2017 11:48
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