Far from getting easier things seem to be getting harder- possibly as my Mum moved in for the first 6 weeks running up to Christmas to act as a buffer.
Since Christmas with Mum gone, stbxh is just constantly messing with my head. Saying he loves me, doesn't want the divorce,is working on sorting out issues one minute.... I take it all with a pinch of salt and have have carried on with divorce proceedings which is probably a good thing as the next minute he goes on about now being free to "shag" whoever he likes, and actually it should be me who should change to win him back....?!!!Errr, ok?!
I have reduced our contact as much as possible BUT....
- All his bills still come out of my bank and I then have to chase him for the money.
- When he comes to visit the kids it's round our house as his place is 30 mins away and a flatshare/lodging.
I am finding keeping my own emotions under check increasingly difficult but don't see a way round it. If I stop paying the bills he will get into further financial difficulty which will impact on maintenance etc in the long run. If I don't let him round the house he has to wander the streets with the kids. Besides, even though I'm paying the mortgage he says he still has the right to come in the house whenever as it's also in his name.
Currently holed up in my own bedroom feeling very sorry myself whilst he is downstairs with the kids.