Me and my husband have been married for 8 years and together for 17 years. We have 2 wonderful children. To the outside world we have a good life.
But I am not happy,I had a very traumatic,chaotic childhood,I was also raped when I was 19. My husband was my best friend and such a kind,gentle nice person. After going through so much,I wanted a relationship that was safe and secure. We ended up together,but it got intense very quickly.
But we are 2 completely different people and although I love him,I don't think I am in love with him. I feel like my true personality is stifled and I am pretending to be somebody I am not.
I've tried leaving him,I've told him he deserves somebody who really wants him and is in love with him.
But he just begs me to stay,says I do love him I just don't know my own mind!! He can be quite controlling,financial and emotionally,has distanced me from family,so all I really have is him.I feel like I am going crazy,
I have never been sexually attracted to him or anyone really. I never want sex although enjoy it when I get into it.
Am I kidding myself that there is a better life out there for me,where I can actually be myself or am I just selfish and not capable of being happy with what I have,when I am very lucky to have the life I do?
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user1488286731 · 28/02/2017 13:26
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