After having thoughts swirling round my head for the past 6 months, I feel at a bit of a loose end. I've been with my husband for 14 years and married for 8. We have 2 beautiful girls 6 & 3 who he is fantastic with and generally he helps around the house (he still has his messy moments but he'll do the washing, wash up iron etc) we got together when I was 18 and I'd had another long term boyfriend before him and a couple of boyfriends in between.
For the past 6 months I feel like the spark has just dropped completely out of our relationship, we argue over the most petty things like he insists on growing a beard but I hate the way it looks and feels and makes me fancy him less, he sits watching sport on the TV constantly or re-runs of mindless sitcoms that he's seen a thousand times before. Whereas I'd watch something more intellectual. Sometimes I feel we're only together because of our children, and whilst he genuinely is a nice guy he can be very spiteful at times, swearing at me and name calling. I react as I have quite a fiery temper but I've got to the point where I just don't have the energy to spend the rest of my life being spoken to like this. I feel like I never know what version of him I'm going to get, I love the happy, caring husband but I can't keep dealing with this verbal abuse. I feel like I've gone off him sexually too in quite a big way, I, just not interested in him and find myself wishing to be with other men (none in particular but I almost yearn to meet someone with similar interests to mine)
I told him how I felt a few months ago and that he seriously needed to change else I would leave him but I feel like I've been saying this for most of our relationship ( I was actually ready to leave him recently, I'd even started looking at houses).
Funding my own house etc isn't an issue as I have a good job and we have quite good equity on our home.
I feel like if I were to pick a partner now, it probably wouldn't be him, but I don't know if that's because we've been together so long we've grown apart. I feel like I've matured but he still acts so childish it makes me want to strangle him at times.
I just can't bear to put my beautiful girls through the trauma of us splitting up, but I feel so confused.
Help! Any advice appreciated x
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Mermaid27 · 26/02/2017 23:52
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