Do you want to talk about it? Sorry you're going through this. Don't go to work if you're not fit to be there and might make mistakes. Get a cup of tea and read something really boring. If you can't sleep lying in the dark thinking in circles really doesn't help. Consider seeing your GP for some (short term) medication to help you sleep.
Thanks NewView. Cup of yes has been made. I'm a full time student so I managed to have a few days off. I also work at the weekend, today I made myself do as much as possible so I plan to do that again today. I can handle the days, it's the nights that are horrible.
He wants to talk now but won't say why. It's messing with my head. My dc aren't his, I've got through a messier break up. It's so raw. I have a busy schedule the next few weeks. That will be my saving grace. I want to scream just now.
Thanks InexperiencedChick. I just want it over with. As NewView said booking him would be the best option. I can't seem to bring myself to keep to that though. I want to handle it better. I'll get there
Thinking of you and sending you virtual support and hugs....the middle of the night is always an absolute bastard in times of grief/ sadness/ illness....be good to yourself and do whatever you need to do to get through the coming weeks and months....x
Thanks Kevin, I'm going for an op in the next few weeks too which will leave me having to rely on others for 6 weeks. No mention of this now he's decided to fuck off. Not that I'd want him there now. Just an acknowledgement would have done fine. You think you know someone!
Going through something similar and it's bloody awful. I listen to podcasts at night and they do send me to sleep after 10-15 mins. Try that when you wake up in the night... maybe after you've had a cry to get it out of your system! Big hug
I'm 3 weeks in to my breakup and I posted the night he left So I know exactly what you are going through and how it feels I couldn't eat, sleep, not stop thinking about it but 3 wks on and I'm having some good moments then sad moments I think I've cried every day for 2 was but I'm not crying as much and I feel I'm getting stronger I've lost 7lbs and my appetite went but I feel it coming back slightly I still feel empty and lost BUT not AS painful. I've been posting lots on here and talking to a handful of friends I can trust and I can honestly say I can see the light at the end of the tunnel When I was with my ex I totally lost myself. I have low self esteem I felt worthless...I'm actually looking forward to getting happier and even with my weight loss which I knows down to stress I'm trying to see myself in a different light and looking after myself and more importantly my little girl Sending hugs xx
Can'tWait I'm so sorry to hear that. I fell into bed shattered last night after a long day. It's when you wake and have to start remembering everything. To be honest now a week on it doesn't seem so raw, the emotions are crazy. I wish I could stop them.
If I lost anymore weight I would disappear so I'm forcing myself to eat. I've been to the docs loads of times and they say I'm fine it's just my metabolism. To be fair pre kids I was thin as hell. I hate hearing people tell me I've lost so much weight am I ok?!.... Yes I'm great thanks .
What have you done in the last 3 weeks to help yourself? I'm at a loss of what to do
To be honest it sounds cliche But I'm literally taking each day as it comes. Like Mondays I go food shopping and I do a food planner for the week so just sitting writing a list for all yummy food for the week for me and lo is something positive. Then I try make something fun for lo Even if is when we get home let's watch a DVD with some popcorn or sweeties and just do something out of the routine as I'm very structured with my routine which helps but also it's fun for lo to do something out of the routine. When lo is in bed I literally try do something that will relax me So I'll do a face pack or the other day o brought some tanning lotion One you can use in the shower Or paint my nails. I've found that doing these small things actually make me feel a little bit better ! It could be anything but my point is setting yourself a task or a treat then enjoying that moment. I try block off as much as I can as I tend to over think. My ex contacted me yesterday multiple times and I just found the strength to ignore them as I know once I text back I'm in his claw How are you feeling today ? Xx
I've managed to turn a corner. I'm not sure how long it will last. I've cut contact. I don't miss him. I feel numb though. I don't want to scream at him anymore,I don't want to talk. I don't care if he's made a mistake, I don't care if he's hurting.