I need advice as I don't know what to do and how to deal with my situation.
So as not to drip feed I'll bore you with some background. My partner and I have been together for a number of years. When we initially got together he had issues with cocaine, to the extent that it was clear he had an addiction (although at the time he would not have acknowledged this). He was forced to give this up as he lost his job and ended up moving out of his accommodation and moved in with me, which took him away from his dealer and, therefore, his access to the drug. He seemed to replace this with alcohol (in my view) to the extent that he drank to excess, seems to have no sense of having 'too much' and does not seem to regulate how much he drinks. There are many examples of him going out for 'one' after work and then rocking up at ridiculous hours of the night without a wallet, phone etc. I've had phone calls from him because he's drunk and lost, on one occasion taken into hospital after collapsing, on another occasion fallen down some escalators. I've lost count of the social events that have, in my view, been ruined by my husband drinking too much. These incidents have been over a period of ten years or so. As a result i have simply avoided situations that might trigger this excessive drinking and we have, to some extent, reached a happy balance albeit this means having limited social life and a lot of structure around situations involving alcohol.
In terms of other relevant background my partners mother was an alcoholic. She died as a result of her drinking. As far as I can tell her alcoholism was present throughout my partners childhood. My partner has also been recently diagnosed with anxiety and depression, for which he is on medication and having counselling.
So, the alcohol situation is difficult but for the most part in recent years we seem to find a balance between his need to drink and my need for him to moderate. However things have started to escalate again. His depression has worsened and as a result his drinking has a escalated. A few weeks back he had a social event revolving around work which resulted in him passed out, lights on, telly on and half dressed. A week later he spent the afternoon in the pub with a colleague and came in very drunk, ranting at me and swearing because I had asked him to keep away from our children in the state he was in (i.e. Stay downstairs). After these two occasions I told him I was leaving him as I did not want the children to be exposed to this. He spoke to his counsellor and this resulted in him giving up drink for three and a half weeks. However, today he had a client event that meant he had been drinking all afternoon. He managed to moderate it to some extent. However, I had a planned Social event tonight with a few friends and left him in sole charge of our two children (having assessed that he was sober enough to look after the children) however whilst I was out he seems to have drunk at least a further bottle and a half of wine. In my view this makes him too inebriated to look after the children. The telltale signs that he was not in a fit state are that his phone is lying on the kitchen floor where he obviously dropped it and didn't pick it up and he fell asleep with the lights and tv on in our bedroom, not stirring when I came in despite me not making any effort to be quiet.
He has so many positive points but I feel like I can't take any more. When he's not drinking he is such a kind gentle man. I appreciate that he has mental health issues and a horrible upbringing that he is coming to terms with but I don't feel I can keep going around this cycle of excessive drinking that he seems to be unable to control and am so worried that the children will be exposed to this behaviour that they themselves might replicate in later life. Equally I'm conscious of my own teetotal background ( although I drink myself but within the healthy limits) and wonder if my view is skewed by this and whether I'm being completely unreasonable and should just accept this as normal behaviour. I'm tying myself in knots about how to deal with this tomorrow when I have to address his inebriated state tonight whilst he was in charge of the children.
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GaryBarlowsunderwear · 25/02/2017 01:29
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