Please can someone advise me whether or not I'm being completely unreasonable?
DP and I have been together for a year. He has lied throughout this time. It's stupid stuff - like I walked in on him masturbating and he swore blind he wasn't and even "showed" me his phone so I could see the screen. He'd hidden what he was actually looking at.
Then one day we were playing a game with my dd and he claimed he wasn't looking up the answer on his phone. Dd told me later when we were alone that he had indeed been looking up the question. She was sitting next to him so could see the screen. Again, he lied and lied until he was forced to confess. I forgave him.
Now the big one. He works away a lot and we made a pact that neither of us would masturbate during this time. The idea being we'd feel closer to one another and it would make his homecoming all the better. I have stacks and stacks of messages telling me how horny he is, how he could go this length of time without an orgasm, reminding me that I couldn't, etc etc. Something didn't feel right and after some probing today he admitted that he had masturbated. He's now "ashamed", "guilty", "embarrassed", doesn't know why he lied, it got harder to get out of - I'm sure you can all imagine.
There's no doubt that he's sorry and he's sworn that he will never lie to me again. I just can't stop going over all the messages he sent lying about it and I feel absolutely stupid for believing in him.
I've cried on and off all day and I feel ridiculous for that too - but I accept the way he's made me feel. This is a very serious relationship and I don't know whether to just get the fuck on with it or whether something else needs to happen.
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AIBU? Because I've totally lost perspective. DP and lying.
DianaMitford · 15/02/2017 22:49
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