Hi all,
I am reaching out on MN as it's four years now since I lost DM and I feel bad to continue to bring my friends down IRL discussing it.
I am mostly ok, I don't expect to ever stop missing her, I don't think that's realistic of anyone when such a close relation is lost, but I'm really struggling with not having any photos of my DM to speak of.
I was really close to DM, we went on holiday just us every year and I really relied on and appreciated her backing in life. But she was never a big fan of having her photo taken and neither was I really, which means there are no photos of just the two of us.
There are a few (very few) photos of my whole family (DM, DF, DB and me), but none of just DM and I. Obviously I'm grateful to have any at all, but DF has since remarried, and DB isn't really fussed about having pics up. I guess I feel it's almost unfair (but blameless) that DF and DB have photos of just them and DM, but don't display them or seem to value them, whereas I really would love to have loads of DM and I and don't have any.
I feel hugely remorseful that I didn't take photos when I could, but I'll never be able to do that now. I just don't know how to deal with the fact that I so dearly want something I absolutely can't have.
I'm not even really sure what I expect to get from this thread! But does anyone have any suggestions for how I can move forward? I have reached out to other family for any pics they gave but so far no joy. I think I need to find a way of coping with the fact I'll never have them rather than thinking of ways to get them, as I don't think the photos I'd really love even exist.
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EnterFunnyNameHere · 01/01/2017 12:15
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