I'm embarrassed to post this and I'm ashamed I feel this way. I know I sound pathetic so apologies in advance.
I broke up with my ex a year ago and I still feel devastated, if not more so than the day it happened. He's cut off all contact and we had brief texts a few months ago. He's found someone else.
I asked for his number to wish him a merry Xmas, he ignored my text. The last time he txt he said he still loved me but that he's moved on but we can keep in touch....but he doesn't want to really as he's ignoring me.
I still love him so much, I still cry. It physically hurts. He was the love of my life and I'm devastated. Knowing he's going to marry someone else and start a family kills me inside. I just can't let him go.
I don't want to be in this world without him. People are sick of me talking about him, that I should just pull myself together but I know I'll never love anyone the way I loved him. He's the only man who has ever treated me well, he was my soul mate and I've lost him.
I just can't see the point of being here anymore. I've tried dating other people but they will never come close to him. I'm going to counselling but it doesn't help. I don't know what I else I can do. I just want the pain to stop, for him to come back to me. I'd do anything for it to stop. He doesn't want me though and it kills me inside.
How can I still love him so much after all this time when he just wants me to go away? I can't get my head around it all.
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I don't want to go on without him
whatdididotodeservethis · 29/12/2016 20:28
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