Just posting here for some moral support as I can't really talk to anyone in real life about this.
Have been in a ltr for 10 years (no kids). Partner is an alcoholic and is horrible when drunk. Verbally aggressive, depressed, suicidal. Have tried to support him every which way, but nothing has ever changed.
I finally made the decision to leave him and have put a deposit down for a flat in the new year.
Even though he agrees this is a good thing for us both when he is sober, when he's drunk he's angry about it, and since I told him my plan he has been drinking more and more.
Tonight he has been out drinking all day. Won't answer the phone or my texts. I just want to know if he will be home tonight so I can lock up if not, but he's ignoring me.
I should be able to think fuck it and lock the door and go to bed, but my anxiety is now so bad that I can't sleep anyway and would be waiting to hear him come home in case he causes a fuss and wakes the neighbours.
Supposed to be getting up early to go to my parents for Christmas tomorrow. I'll go by myself now but will be exhausted from lack of sleep.
Will also be terribly anxious whilst I'm away to think about what state he is getting into whilst I'm gone and if he will do anything stupid to himself or at the very least ruin neighbours Christmases by being drunk and loud.
Sorry for the ramble, just wish I could pull myself together and think fuck it.
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Help me grow a backbone please
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Ineedstrength · 24/12/2016 01:00
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