Hello anyone reading so late, I could just do with some advice - hand holding, straight-talking whatever you think.
I just feel really low and sad and crushed. When I got married we moved to where my husband was from and the plan was that we would eventually move back closer to my family who I love dearly and am very close to.
Of course time passed and our children became attached to where they lived but I still wanted to move back to support my parents. Anyway things came to a head this year when we tried to move but for various reasons it all went wrong and we are back where we started.
I feel like the scales have suddenly fallen from my eyes and I realise that I have made all the sacrifices in our relationship in terms of giving up my career, my closeness to my family, doing the majority of the bloody childcare/ housework, dedicating myself to my husband (who works away a lot) and children's happiness (all of whom I adore).
But it suddenly occurred to me that my DH has never put me first. At no time did he say, come on darling - it is your turn now, let's go and explore a different area of the country, its so exciting for us to try something new. The whole time it was "I'll move if you really want but I really like here, there's nothing for me in the new place, I'm not going to bother to make any new friends, I don't know anyone" etc etc. At no time did he show any enthusiasm, volunteer to visit any new towns, consider the length of his commute at any places, spend any time on right move etc etc. I spent so much time worrying about how he felt and the problems he might have that by the time the move came I was consumed by fear and basically had a mental breakdown. We are now back living in our old house and I am full of regret and sadness, but also anger - why could he not do this for me?
Am i being unreasonable? I know I should have had more confidence in what I wanted to do and been able to push it through but that's not my personality - I really needed him to be with me on this, holding my hand and telling me our future was going to be amazing. But now what i wanted for so long has gone and we can't upheaval the kids again. Do I try and talk to him about how I feel or do I just leave it and try and move on but with lessons learnt and how do I suddenly sort myself from family douchebag to woman with balls. I found a letter from an old boyfriend the other day that described me as a"beautiful free spirit"- I wonder what happened to that girl and if she can ever come back.
Anyone been here before and come out the other side?
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bitcrushed · 17/12/2016 23:23
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