Sorry if this is long but it's bothering me.
When i was young (16) I had a 5 year relationship with an abusive man.
We had a child and I was regularly hit and verbally abused.
One night I cheated on him and he found out and basically beat me very badly. I can still picture the whole event from the first punch.
He tried to stab me with a knife and I ended up with a broken nose and jaw.
I do regret not reporting him to the police but I felt like rubbish and hindsight is a wonderful thing.
I got away from him at 21 and went on to marry my now DH, completely different relationship. I am very happy and loved.
23 years later and I'm in close contact with my ex again because our DS (now 25) has developed a very severe MH problem. My ex and I get on absolutely fine and have spent many an hour in the A & E dept.
we speak most days, only to discuss our DS.
The problem with this is I'm waking up at night thinking about what happened.
I am also friends on FB with the person i cheated with. He knows what happened to me as a consequence of cheating. I was beaten outside his house.
I don't know why but i want to contact him and tell him how much that night changed my life.
Why do i want to do this?
I feel confused by all this.
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I keep dreaming and thinking about Historical DV. What can i do to settle my thoughts.
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ihatethecold · 24/11/2016 16:11
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