Been with DH 4 years, married 2, 1 DS 18 months. I am generally unhappy with my life atm, and I keep thinking of things that have happened in the past that upset me - big events from childhood that were never explained, things at my previous job etc. In this introspection I've also thought about the start of my relationship. It seems ridiculous now and obviously not really something to bring up 4 years down the line but 3 things happened which perhaps should have been red flags.
Firstly he told me (voluntarily!) how many women he'd been with previously. He told me stories about them and how he'd met them and how they came to sleep together (I know many people cringe at this type of conversation but it happened), and I was reciprocal and honest. 10 months down the line he told me it was all lies and I was actually his first. It seemed such a daft and trivial thing to lie about. I forgave him but I can't help thinking about all the lying and how easy it was for him.
Nextly, DH is a practicing Roman Catholic who, when I met him, went to church with his family every week. Great, no problems, not religious myself but each to their own. Except he didn't actually tell me this, until, at about 5 months into the relationship, one night his drunken mother said to me, 'X hasn't been to church with us once since he met you'. I was totally shocked and he just looked sheepish. Then as the months went on I was convinced into going to church with them 'so we could have a catholic wedding' and 'so our child could go to a catholic school' both of which I rolled my eyes at but we did have the catholic wedding and my son is christened catholic. I am so annoyed with myself for getting swept along in the religious side of things and I wish I'd not altered my beliefs for him and his family. As it happened, MIL also pretty much refused to speak to me at this big catholic wedding.
The last thing is that he refused to tell anybody we were a couple for 6 months. He'd told his parents and i had told mine, but for whatever reason he was insistent his friends, colleagues etc didn't know. I found this extremely annoying at the time, as on one hand he was telling me he loves me and he wants to marry me (!) but the next thing is that it's all cloak and dagger and nobody must know. In the end, one of my friends jokingly asked him why it said he was single on his facebook page which brought it all to a head and eventually he was happy to tell people.
Does this all sound ridiculous and trivial and nothing to worry about? I can't help going over and over these three things and wonder if any of them should have screamed 'get out'! I was only 19 when we met, and possibly naive and impressionable. Thanks for reading.
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snapyap · 30/10/2016 15:00
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