I'm such an idiot

[quietagain]

I have split up from my abusive ex and also gone LC with my abusive parents.
But I am still putting myself in a position to be hurt and used and kicked aside because the sentimental part of me still wants things to be ok.
I know, after a recent incident, that this must change but it leaves me completely on my own, with no one.
I have to cut myself off completely.

I don't know where to start because I need to be near ex so that he can see dc.
But I am not sure where to go. Already done women's aid, lots of support really amazing advice but I am really stuck as to what move to make because I can't see a way out of this horrible situation.

I feel a bit desperate to be honest and mainly really really stupid for allowing myself to be hurt again when
I should know full well that these people don't love or care about me even though I thought or hoped that they did.

[quietagain]

Is it possible to have very minimal
Contact with ex/father of child (ie. Not have to speak to him much) and not affect the dc emotionally ?