hi i have always been wary of people in any kind of relationship IRL. online i'm this extrovert but IRL i am often feeling very ashamed, worthless and uncomfortable if people get too close. i don't date. i feel afraid of men. i had a difficult upbringing. lots of verbal emotional abuse with some domestic violence thrown in. i have had a lot of MH support over the years. been in MH services since age 17 due to personality disorder symptoms and self injury. i feel bad for still needing to talk to someone about my past . at moment i am battling anxiety and eating disorder issues and am in OA but there is something i am not really dealing with.
i recently came to accept the fact that i had been sexually abused as a young girl by a couple of my classmates. i realise they were only kids and most likely had no idea of what they were doing but i am concerned it may be causing issues in my life at moment. i still find myself getting inappropriately triggered by certain social situations and also by the stuff in the media about sexual assault and bullying.
am i being self indulgent to ask for some counselling regarding this? i am seeing a MH worker this week coming and wonder if i should mention this at all?
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is this worth pursuing or do i just need to let it go? (this is a bit heavy- sorry if it comes off as a downer)
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IWasGintyMarlowe · 07/10/2016 01:06
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