I have posted a couple of times in the past but have name changed for this because I think my old name could out me. I am in a really difficult situation and cannot see a way out. I will try to describe the position.
DH and I met 25 years ago, when I was in my early twenties. He was 17 years older and divorced with two children. Despite it being 2 years after the divorce, there was still a lot of bad feeling and an ongoing custody battle. Move forward a few years and we married and had two children.
I struggled to establish a career – DH was very supportive in quite a controlling way – we work in the same profession (that is how we met) and he always felt he knew how I should proceed with my career. At first I was willing to accept “guidance”. However, as time went on, either he became more controlling in all areas of my life or I became less willing to be controlled. It felt as if I always had to justify anything I wanted to do, whereas, for example, he was at liberty to take part in hobbies two or three times a week.
When the children grew up and left home, life should have got easier but about 5 years ago things started to get really bad. I had made good progress at work but it was very stressful and DH felt I was concentrating on the wrong things even though by then I felt I had a better understanding of my precise role than he did. He tries to get people to do what he thinks is appropriate by talking at length (eg for hours at a time). I find it difficult to cope with this. We were having several arguments a week and I was getting very distressed. In the end I felt in danger of losing my sanity and walked out 18 months ago with just a suitcase of stuff.
After a few weeks, I found a small house – where I am still living. DH was understandably keen to discuss the issues with me but we kept going round in circles and I found it very hard to cope with discussions that he dominated. I knew the situation had to be resolved, i.e. we needed to either reconcile or divorce but it always felt too difficult to deal with. About 8 months ago I started a relationship with another man. DH asked me if I was having a relationship with anyone and I admitted that this was the case. He initially said that he still wanted me back and would even be willing for an open relationship. He is now putting intense pressure on me to agree to stop my new relationship – within the space of a few minutes he alternates between telling me that he loves me and urging me to spend the night with him and essentially threatening to destroy my career.
Reading this it would seem straightforward that I need to let him know that the marriage is over, but when I try to say this he stops me and I am actually very frightened of how destructive he could be. I switch between being frightened and feeling sorry for him – I know he loves me. I now feel I am being stalked. My new partner is lovely – not necessarily a life partner but a decent person who would be badly affected by trouble with my DH. DH has not met my new partner, who works away a lot. Also, I feel really bad for DH – I have changed a lot but he has changed less: he thinks I am swapping him for a younger man, but this is really not the incentive.
I do not know how to move things forward. I am finding the current situation intolerable and do not feel safe but can't decide if I am getting things out of proportion. I cannot "vanish" and start again because the nature of my job means that I could easily be tracked down if I got a job elsewhere. Also I want regular contact with my grown up children (who I am very close to).
Sorry this is so long. I have missed out a lot of stuff so it isn’t even longer or too identifying.
Any advice would be really welcome.
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burninglikefire · 31/08/2016 00:52
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